Self Awareness

Kurt on October 14th, 2009

I don’t do it often enough, but every now and then I like to spend some time taking a good, hard look at myself. I don’t have a set routine or a “check list”, so the things I inspect and, as a result, the things I discover vary every time. Here are some things I have become more aware of lately:

- Spiritually, I get “out of sorts” quicker than I used to. I used to be able to go a couple of days without connecting with the Father before I would feel the side effects. Nowadays it seems that if I miss even one day I get grumpy, distracted, selfish etc.  Honestly I don’t know what this means…could be good or bad.

- Age has finally set in.This one hurts…literally! My eyes hurt after reading, my muscles hurt after exercising (usually for a couple days!) and if I happen to incur some sort of injury it takes much longer to bounce back than it used to.

- Related to the last one….I am older than many parents of junior highers in my ministry. I don’t feel older, I don’t feel wiser or more mature, but the truth is many parents now look to me not only as the pastor to their child but as a parenting model or coach.

- I bore easily.I’m not a great multi-tasker, but I like to juggle lots and lots of projects at once. I can’t really focus on anything for more than a couple hours so variety is the key to a productive day.  I’ve always known this, but I think I am just now beginning to embrace it and figure out ways to make it work for me, not against me.

- I care about people, but I’m terrible at showing it! I hurt when people hurt…I hurt a lot. But I am really bad at confidently and appropriately expressing this. My most awkward interpersonal moments seem to happen when I am trying to console somebody or during hospital visits etc.

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zac at 9:59am October 15

Thanks for modeling self-awareness. This definitely served as an encouragement for me to do the same.

David at 1:18pm October 15

I hear you – especially on that last one. I am older than our parents yet… but I have the hardest time showing that I care – physically.

John at 6:19am November 17

When you say that variety is key to a productive day, what are the practical applications of that? I would love to know how you are “embracing it” and in what ways it is working for you.